Maybe I am a bad blogger...

This was supposed to be something for me to document on... and guess what? I don't do it. I guess I don't really know what to write that I don't know...maybe one person will read. Which is perfectly fine. I have been dealing with alot lately, thinking about college and how I spent my time. Some regreting, some thankful. I was a part of a ministry for a good deal of college and now that I look back on that time I am glad I did not feel a "part" of it. I see how these people treat me now that I am graduated and I think it was not worth the time. I really did learn some great principles from this group, but how much loving people did they really do? In my case, not much. I really tried hard to fit in, and I didn't. I really don't feel like I fit in anywhere. I don't mean to sound like some kind of depressing person that is "oh woe is me" all the time, but this really is how I feel. I know God is showing me something through all of this, and I have a feeling it might be something along the lines of, "I AM enough". God IS enough. Even if I look back at my college years and see a bunch of awkwardness, I am who God says I am, and HE is sufficient for ME. What relief that I don't have to wonder why the vast majority of the people who used to be my friends don't really acknowledge me anymore because I am "out of sight and out of mind". I guess I obviously do... but God is teaching me, and showing me Himself in all of this.

On another note, I feel like I am moving out of one phase of my life. I am so ready to get married and start a life with Stephen. I have waited oh so long. I feel like I am in some kind of awkward phase that I am ready to exit at this time. Are you catching the trend with my life?? AWKWARD! haha. I am guessing I am not the only person who feels this way. I believe I am awkward because I am a work in progress. I don't know when this "awkwardness" will end, but I have a feeling it won't be soon. And, I am ok with that. :o)