Wednesday, February 25, 2009

So here goes...

I don't get depressed about being out of college too often. I am enjoying this new stage of life and I am loving the new and exciting things I know can't be too far away!! The only thing that really hurts is losing friends. I try to keep in touch with certain people, and sometimes they don't even respond back. I hate to be this way, but that really hurts. I guess this is part of growing up and moving on, but I don't like it. To pretend that you never even knew someone that you once told some of your biggest secrets to. I suppose I have a tendence to overthink things, and I think that for some reason I am "flawed" and someone gor tired of me. AND it is my fault. I don't know why I automatically go to that thought, and I am sure it is not healthy. Am I the only person that feels this way??

Monday, February 16, 2009

So, maybe you have realized I am not the best blogger

Maybe you have discovered this by my lack of posts, or quite possibly my MAJORLY lacking writing skills! haha I don't really have alot to say, I only have my opinions. Who doesn't? I was so excited for this past weekend, but was sad to hear about the plane crash on Friday morning. The thing that gets me is that people sometimes see people in things like this as the "few" or "statistics". I just couldn't help but think about the family in that house. The mother and daughter were watching television when they heard an extremely loud plane over their house. The next thing they knew, their ceiling was on top of them. The father had gone into the dining room to do some work. He did not make it. Can you imagine? Here I am, right now, doing my thing, and the next second a plane lands on my house. That just blows my mind. The girl in the house was 22, like me. I just feel so burdened to pray for that family, along with everyone affected by the crash. I could not fathom losing Stephen, or my Father. It honestly sounds like a nightmare to me.

On a lighter note, this weekend was fun at home with Stephen. He took me to a nice Mexican restaurant. We had such a good time! Is it bad that I like to sit in his lap? I did this while we were waiting on a table, as there were no seats left and I wonder what people are thinking when they see me do this? Is it just too much? We then went to Roper Mountain Science Center to the aquarium. We had a great time. Saturday we cooked breakfast together, shopped, and cooked dinner together. Stephen made me the sweetest DVD about the past, present, and the future. The future of course had us married and our "dream house" we are always talking about, along with a weimaraner dog, and a Range Rover. The Range Rover for Stephen of course. I am not too much into cars. I have my dream car! My red Toyota. ANYWAYS, it was really sweet. I love that boy. He is so wonderful and patient with me. Anytime I meet guys and they act interested I cant help but think, " You think you can put up with me? HAHAHA!" Stephen has a big job, and he is good with it. I just have to know who is boss. lol!

I cant help but think how it would feel to lose all of these wonderful things in one instant. It breaks my heart. I am definately praying for the Wielinski family.